Yeah right you say. I see how open you are online. Or I’ve met you, and we’ve hung out at such and such place and you put yourself out there. (and that’s because you KNOW me)
Ok, so let’s think about that online thing – the Internet is like this little cocoon. We all know that. There is a shelter when you have a keyboard, glass and cat cables between you and the world. As bloggers we all know about that “shield”.
My dear friend Danielle gave me advice last night that I can be a little standoffish in unfamiliar situations. (okay, well, a little bitchy) It’s something I am completely aware of. I’m not intentionally trying to be rude, to ignore you, to blow you off. I’m just well, out of my element. Yes, me, uncomfortable. UNCOMFORTABLE.
I love coming to conferences and seeing my online friends, but it’s definitely something I make myself do – to push me out of tidy little box. I go to conferences for my mental health just as much as I do to learn.
I am not the cool girl (seriously) and I certainly wasn’t in my school years (but let’s not talk about how long ago THAT was) and even now, all of these, ahem, decades later, it’s overwhelming to me that people want to come up to me and chat me up. Especially if I’m unsure who they are. Really, no offense there if I don’t instantly recognize you – I am SO THANKFUL for name tags.
So, if I was weird to you this weekend in San Diego, it’s not you, it’s me. And I’m not saying that in a bad relationship break up kind of way.